To Know Me Is To Love Me

I WANT: it all and then some
I HAVE: a plan, and i’m sticking to it!
I HATE: losing control
I MISS: MSU!
I HEAR: tattoo machines buzzing
I REGRET: nothing
I LOVE: to fight
I DANCE: wildy and without abandon
I SING: in the shower
I CRY: rarely
I NEED TO LEARN: to keep my emotions in check
I SHOULD: learn turkish

[YES OR NO, YOU]
1. KEEP A DIARY: yes.
2. KEEP A JOURNAL: does a blog count?
3. SET YOUR WATCHES A FEW MINUTES AHEAD: 15 in fact
4. BITE YOUR FINGERNAILS: no
5. BELIEVE IN LOVE?: are you kidding me?

[DO YOU]
1. HAVE A/ANY CRUSH(ES): only johnny depp!
2. THINK YOU’VE BEEN IN LOVE: once upon a time, true love existed here
3. HAVE TATTOOS: yes, 16
4. HAVE PIERCINGS: yes, but i rarely wear them

[WHEN YOU SEE THIS NAME YOU THINK OF...]
RYAN: strye
DOUG: nicktoons!
STEVEN: perkowski
JOHN: and barb (my aunt and uncle)
JOSH: my web designer
SCOTT: thatch
KEN: barbie.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU..
CRIED?: a little bit.
HELPED SOMEONE?: yes
BOUGHT SOMETHING?: yes, two hand-rolled cigars
GOTTEN SICK?: no.
GONE TO THE MOVIES?: im going to see “righteous kill” tonight
GONE OUT FOR DINNER?: yes, mongo’s!
SAID “I LOVE YOU”?: yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER?: yes
TALKED TO AN EX?: yes
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL?: im blogging right now!
MISSED SOMEONE?: yes.
HUGGED SOMEONE?: yes.
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS?: no.
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND?: no

[WOULD YOU EVER..]
1. EAT A BUG?: ew.
2. BUNGEE JUMP?: yes.
3. HANG GLIDE?: yes.
4. KILL SOMEONE?: if i could get away with it
5. HAVE SEX WITH SOMEONE YOU DON’T LOVE?: never again
6. PARACHUTE FROM A PLANE?: already have!
7. WALK ON HOT COALS?: yes.
8. GO OUT TO EAT WITH A COMPLETE STRANGER?: yes
9. GO OUT WITH SOMEONE FOR THEIR REPUTATION?: yes
10. BE A VEGETARIAN?: no
11. WEAR PLAID WITH STRIPES?: already have
12. PURPOSELY HURT SOMEONE?: yes
13. SING KAROKE?: already have
14. RUN A RED LIGHT?: if there are no cops in sight
15. DYE YOUR HAIR BLUE?: i like pink better
16. BE ON SURVIVOR?: maybe
17. MAKE SOMEONE CRY?: yes
18. KICK A BABY?: no, even though i can’t stand babies.
19. STAY UP ALL THROUGH THE NIGHT: have and will again

[THE LAST PERSON WHO..]
1. SLEPT IN THE SAME BED WITH YOU: …
2. SAW YOU CRY: streeter
4. WENT TO THE MOVIES WITH: kate
5. WENT TO DINNER/LUNCH WITH: green beret
6. YOU TALKED ON THE PHONE WITH: grandma
7. MADE YOU LAUGH: my tattoo artist

[DO YOU PREFER]
1. FLOWERS OR CANDY?: why can’t i have both
2. GREY OR BLACK?: black& grey
3. COLOR OR BLACK & WHITE PHOTOS?: b&w
4. PINK OR PURPLE?: pink!
5. SUNRISE OR SUNSET?: sunset
6. STAYING UP LATE OR WAKING UP EARLY?: both

[ANSWER TRUTHFULLY]
1. DO YOU LIKE ANYONE?: yes.
2. DO THEY KNOW IT?: yessssssssss
3. DO THEY LIKE YOU?: YES!

[IN THE LAST MONTH, HAVE YOU]
1. HAD A BF/GF?: no
2. BOUGHT SOMETHING?: Too much, actually
3. SANG?: im the queen of karaoke!
4. DANCED CRAZY?: everyday!
5. GOTTEN YOUR HAIR CUT?: yes, quite drastically actually
6. GOTTEN HIGH?: only on life!
7. CRIED?: yes

Kony 2012: Mobs, Takedowns and Meltdowns, but Very Little Truth

Reblogged from Global Spin:

I spoke to Jason Russell for the second time last week as one of my final interviews in over two months of reporting for a TIME piece on Joseph Kony, his Lord’s Resistance Army (LRA) and the anti-L.R.A. activist group Russell co-founded with two friends in 2003, Invisible Children. In the time since we’d first spoken in mid-February, Invisible Children had released its 10th film on Kony, …

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I've been watching the media frenzy over the “Kony 2012” viral and frankly, it leaves a bit of a bad taste in my mouth. Will revisit this topic in three months, regardless of outcome.

‘fess up

i have a few confessions to make:

i have a tendency to kill plants, take the last cookie, hog the covers, kiss and tell, break hearts, eat fruit in the grocery, forget birthdays, arrive late (despite my best intentions-even when i leave early!), rack up library fines, spend too much time on-line and hardly ever comment on other people’s blogs…

how do YOU fail?

embarrassing myself in front of attractive men and other dating disasters

we all know the type.

that guy, whose smile makes your heart sort of flutter, and your stomach creep up your throat so fast you feel like you might throw up, only you can’t do that because if you did, oh god, your life would be over.  i mean seriously, like kill yourself on the spot.

but anyway, you know the guy, the one whose smell drives you wild, or it would if you could get close enough to smell him anyway…ok, or who’s beautiful eyes (we’re not exactly sure what color they are as we’ve never seen him without his trademark shades on)…

ok, i know i’m not making much sense here, but any girl whose ever crushed on a guy from afar knows EXACTLY what i’m talking about.

beauty in the breakdown

ever since that day,

i cry alot more and smile alot less.

how do i

break it to my heart

that ive got to get over you?

i don’t know how.

not to love you anymore.

how do i learn to live apart from the one i gave my heart to?

how will i let a new life in if i am still holding onto you?

i don’t know how.

el bandito y mi corazon

i have crosses to bear
the damage is great
i hope that we’re not too late
i travel this life alone

maybe if you had met me sooner
you would have found me saner
but thats not the way things were meant to be
for you and me

i told you not to love me
but now i wonder if i meant it
you gave me your word
now i wonder if you’ve kept it
i would say it was an act of fate
but i dont want to tempt it

when i think about the future
im start busting at the seams
try not to overthink it,
wondering what it all means

you got me when i was down
caught between tomorrow and yesterday
wondering if things will be ok

broken hearted, ive been listening
inside a mind full of silent screams
now i feel like im walking, open-eyed
into a world of my dreams

A Tale of Moderate Destruction

everything reminds me of something that reminds me of you

are you surrounded by things that remind you of me too?

im on the corner of main street

trying to keep my heart in check

wondering when ill see you next

can you read my mind?

it’s funny how i just break down waiting for a sign

taking me places ive never been

seeing things with new eyes

even things from the past bring a welcoming surprise

you may touch me in dreams

but they don’t stay

today you dont have much to say

dont hi and goodbye

sound so cruel?

no, not if

in the end

im next to you

fotograph of you

like most women,

i like to have my photo taken.

especially by someone

who loves me.

Won’t Back Down

I am not interested in sympathizing or emphasizing with the enemy.

What I am interested in is understanding the enemy to better defend America and her interests at home and abroad. The key to ensuring that young American lives are not sacrificed unnecessarily on future battlefields lies in the development of a new generation of ethical, independent-minded military commanders and intelligence leadership.

When we see something that needs to be fixed or done better, we must persist—loyally, respectfully—but we mustn’t give up. In the Navy, the majority of my training centered on teambuilding and collaboration.

That’s all well and good to a point but eventually, there will come a time when one must stand alone and say, “This is wrong,” or “This is my responsibility—I don’t agree with you, and I am going to do what’s right.”

In all the parks in the entire world, I have yet to find a statue built for a committee. Whether in the military, a Fortune 500 company or a university, all it takes is one person with a vision and the ability to execute that vision.

Be that person.

Je suis métisse

Artwork by Rachel Mae. Check out her portfolio at http://mylittlenative.webs.com/

I am Métis
Ce n’est pas indiscret

It is not a secret
Ma mère était Ojibwe

My mother was Ojibwe
Mon père était français

My father was French
Moi, je suis métisse

I am Métis
Et je demande la lune
And I shoot for the moon

Je suis métisse

I am Métis
Je suis plus sauvage que le feu

I am wilder than fire

 

Il y a quelque chose qui cloche

Something’s amiss, something isn’t right
Rien n’est comme il semble.

Nothing is as it seems
Ce sentiment d’appartenir est seulement dans mes rêves

This sense of belonging is only in my dreams
Peut-être que je n’y suis pour rien

Maybe it was not my fault
Mais je n’en reviens pas

But I cannot believe it
Bon sang ne saurait mentir

What’s bred in the bone will come out in the flesh

 

Je suis métisse

I am Métis
Je suis plus forte que la terre

I am stronger than the Earth

 

Il y a tant à dire mais je ne peux pas trouver les mots

There is so much to say but I cannot find the words
Mes gens, les Métis, ils étaient chassés

My people, the Métis, were chased out

Aujourd’hui, je dois combattre le racisme de mon histoire

Today, I must fight the racism of my heritage
Plus ça change, plus c’est la même chose

The more things change, the more they stay the same
Parfois je me demande si ce combat en vaut le coup

Sometimes I wonder if this fight is worthwhile
Mais je dois écouter mon coeur quand il m’appelle

But I must listen to my heart when it calls to me

 

Je suis métisse

I am Métis
Je suis plus calme que l’eau

I am calmer than the water

 

Il y a des voix de mes ancêtres

There are the voices of my ancestors
Qui veulent être entendues

That want to heard
J’entendrai leurs voix

I hear their voices
Comme un cri au fond de moi

Like a cry in my heart
Je dois dire alors ce jour-là

I must speak so that one day
Mon cœur comprendra

My heart will understand

 

Je suis métisse

I am Métis
Je suis plus libre que le vent

I am freer than the wind

 

Ça fait mon affaire

It’s my business
Je ne sais pas où je vais

I don’t know where I am going
Et je ne sais pas pourquoi

And I don’t know why
Mais un jour, je verrai chanter mon cœur

But one day, I’ll see my heart sing
Et je comprendrais

And I will understand
Qu’à un coeur vaillant rien n’est impossible.

That for a valient heart nothing is impossible

Real-Life Horror

boo!

This year for Halloween, I’m going as a victim of the American Health Care System.